wondering how John is since his surgery………..
Traveling is a good way to get a second opinion on everything.
ramblings of a middle aged woman
am feeling the need to explain it all. however I do not know how. there is a deep aching inside, many reasons, few solutions. if i had the answers wouldn’t i fix it? how can i live the rest of my life without it? how can someone else arouse this much in me and how do i not pursue that? is it someone else or just my current need that is driving this? is it current or has it merely been hidden? there is an eternal question “is this all there is?”, when you ask yourself that question do you not begin to try and answer it? this cannot possibly be all there is, i know that because i have been soooo awakened recently and mostly by mere dreams. also by growth in my professional life and my weight changes. this is not all there is and i am so happy to know that. just where and how to proceed from here? lots of questions, no answers yet. better than nothing…………
Dreams
Used to be so benign, my dreams…. Chocolate, walks on the beach, stupid scary shit…… Not any more. Now they are romantic, erotic, exciting. Once again mid-life or something else? Matters not they are so fun and fuel my joy with the everyday. So off I go for a nap ;)
Mid-life issues
Am so worried about my friend and the possible end of her marriage. There is not a thing I can do. I have been trying to encourage her for years, no help. She is happy/not happy with him. Affection and sex have been an issue for a long time and she is no longer willing to go without. Let's see where it gooes from here. In the mean time, I have a good relationship but too little love making. Seems my mind has settled that for me, dreams. Woah!!!
Future
My daughter just graduated with a BS in Chemistry. And a GRE of 1330. So what is next? Toxicology? Forensics? Graduate school? ahhh the future ………….
Two cheers for the President and his America’s Jobs Act. Cheer Number One: In presenting it to a joint session of Congress, he sounded as passionate and determined as he’s ever sounded.
Second cheer: He laid out the problem correctly and effectively. He explained why jobs and growth must be…
Hold your head high, stick your chest out. You can make it. It gets dark sometimes, but morning comes. Keep hope alive. ~ Jesse Jackson
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Cancer is this week’s topic
My friend just found out he has non-smokers lung cancer, stage 4. This is not good news for an 80 year old who seems 40, a perpetual motion athlete. Chemo is the recommendation. How will he sit still through it all? Just the administration of the chemo much less the in between of sluggishness, nausea, exhaustion, etc.
And what am I to do to help? The delicate distance one keeps from friends, not wanting to impose too much. He & his wife are quite independent. Wonderful, fun, energetic and great friends. But there has always been this delicate distance. I know they will need help of varying kinds; listening, cooking, driving, shopping. Respite from the effects of going through the chemo process. I will touch base each day in hopes of hearing something I might do to help, maybe only the listening will…..
And me, well my fair Irish skin has produced a squamous cell carcinoma on my forearm. Further excision will determine if it has spread. Years of sun worship may have come back to haunt me.
